My 2012 word

A couple of weeks prior to Christmas I started thinking about what my 2012 word was going to be.  As much as I loved 'Adventure' last year, I wanted something a little more challenging, so I started to pray that God would lay on my heart what area He thought I needed to work on and what my word should be.  I started getting a feeling about the direction that I wanted my word to be geared toward.  When Daniel left, I spent so much time in the Word and talking to God and looking for God in everything I did because He is all I had left.   Now, 3 years later, I find myself slowly slipping into old habits.  With work and kids and church and the fact that things are "good" I find myself more self sufficient and not leaning on God as much.  I still talk with God and spend time with Him, but I can honestly say that I don't have that same yearning to just be with Him.  I am also finding it tricky to have Richard in my life, but striving to keep God my first love.  It's so easy for me to substitute Richard into that spot that only God can fill and I don't want to do that.  So I started thinking about how I can go back to that desperation of loving God with all of me, without being in such a traumatic time.  So after I had that vision in my head, I started trying to think of a word that would encompass all those thoughts.  One Sunday in youth we talked about 1 Peter 2:2  "Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation"  Once I heard the word crave, I thought that might be a great word!!  I continued to pray and see what God laid on my heart and during one of our many trips to the store, I saw a huge display for the new Kellogg's cereal...

...and that was all I needed to see!!  That would be my 2012 word!!  It still amazes me how in your face God can be if we just take the time to look and listen!  I pray that this year will be filled with learning how to CRAVE God through the good times and, that as my life moves forward with Richard, I will always be able to keep God as my first Love.